Somewhere, something incredible is waiting to be known. Carl Sagan

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Sometimes it takes something truly major to make us take a good, hard look at ourselves and ask the question: Am I happy?

For many it takes a tragedy, a life-altering disease, accident or event, for others it may be the result of a betrayal or a broken relationship. For me it was the death of my brother.

Events following his passing lead me to search for evidence that he still existed, somewhere, somehow … and I found it!

As my mindset changed, as I was lead to question everything I thought I knew and learned incredible things I hadn’t even considered, I was fundamentally altered. So much so, that when I reached the exact age he had been on the day of his death – 30 years and 57 days – I took that good, hard look at myself and asked the question. My answer was immediate and unequivocal: No, I am not happy.

It took time, and I had to walk away from my marriage and go through the further grief of losing my father, but gradually, through searching for and finding more evidence that my loved ones are watching over me, I found many reasons to believe I could achieve so much more and change my life for the better. Not everything works out the way I want it to, and there will undoubtedly be more challenges along the way, but I found lasting love, I got to university, I wrote the novels, and today I can shout it out: I AM HAPPY!

Here you can read my story, Reason to Believe, told through my blog posts.

You can also read about my novels, ‘Flight of the Kingfisher’ and ‘The Waiting Gate’, written utilising the amazing things I learned about life, death and in between. Also News, Interviews and Articles, my poetry and short stories.

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To purchase from Amazon click on the title:

Flight of the Kingfisher       The Waiting Gate       Natural Alchemy


On a completely difference subject, I am a Guide Dogs for the Blind volunteer, and in 2016 I had the pleasure of raising a puppy from the age of 7 weeks to 13 months. I took hundreds of photographs and captioned them, and these are now in a blog. You can read all about it on my other website aguidedogpuppiesfirstyear by clicking here

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